badexample @ 2005-02-25T12:05:00

2005-02-25T17:04:02Z

I never talk to any of my friends anymore.
I was thinking last night, that I basically
have noone. Anyone that I remotely considered
a friend, doesn't talk to me and I don't talk to
them. So I guess my parents have won this game.

badexample @ 2004-05-15T11:32:00

2004-05-15T15:38:37Z

I wish I had a time machine to go back to when it all was okay.
Back to when it wasn't hard to believe in yourself. What's
living if you don't want to wake up tomorrow? What's living when
everyone around you seems so happy and you can't even show a
fucking smile. I'm tired of pretending everything's okay.
No more lying. No more faking it. I don't want to be a fake anymore.
I want to be a better kid and love life again like before.
I want to get myself out of this black hole I've been in for
years. I don't want to be fucking sad all the time, and I don't
want to be fucking put down everytime I open my mouth.
I don't know why I bother to speak anymore. No one listens.
It's like they don't want to hear me.
Why is it I can hear you in a whisper, but you can't even hear me screaming?
I don't want to relate to those songs anymore. You know, the songs that screech, the songs that never stop, the songs that get you down.

why do I even bother?
why am I taking the time to type this out?

why? why?why?why?WHY?Why?why.

friends only

I am your tourniquet

badexample @ 2005-02-25T12:05:00

badexample @ 2004-05-15T11:32:00